tick tock

i can't hear the ticks and tocks of time passing by. the clock hands are moving to fast and i am trying to take in every ounce of this beautiful moment that i have. its been one month......one month of holding her, watching her grow, loving on her, counting those little fingers and toes, sleepless nights, mid morning naps, and early morning walks.





i absolutely love this little one. she has consumed me.....and i wouldn't want it any other way!

speechless

I am speechless. There are no words that can truly express how I feel. No words that can be shouted out to tell the world. No words can express my emotions. I don't think there will ever be words to explain this journey that we have embarked on. To express how truly blessed we are. April 15, 2010, a day for most that comes and goes. A day where you normally wake up and make your way through your daily activities. But this day was not a normal day for us. We had waited so long for this day. We planned, prepared, waited, and waited.





April 15 brought us a gift. A gift that has forever changed the way I look at life....the way I go to sleep at night and wake up in the morning......the way I think about my day......the way I look at my day....the way I look at Drew....the way I look at us. This little day has changed my life because with it bloomed a product of the love that I have for Drew. On April 15 we had our precious little girl.



This little girl that I had waited so long to hold was finally here....and when I held her it felt as if it was only me and her.





April 15 brought emotions that words cannot explain. We have a precious little one that has changed our life forever. We have been blessed ten times over.

a feeling like no other

The pages of my journal have not been turned in quite some time.
My thoughts are running wild.
I had every intention to document this most amazing experience.
This experience that I have been oh so blessed to have.
I wanted her to know everything.
I wanted to remember every second of this beautiful experience.
If I could just press that little rewind button and relive the last few months.......I would jot down every little feeling, emotion, sound, ache, pain, sleep, no sleep, cravings, and absent mindedness moments.

I'm 28 weeks this week and she is moving like no other. I love the feeling of her swooshing, flipping, kicking, punching, little body. I love to feel the "wave" of butterflies that flutter throughout my stomach as she dances. I absolutely love the feeling of feeling her move.





Before we know it........the blessing that we receive bring all sorts of feelings. Olivia is a blessing that no one will ever be able to take from me. This experience of carrying a child and the joy that comes with being a home for a sweet little one that will bring so many new experiences when she is ready.

The Glimmering of Christmas.

boxes found their way down from the attic. lights unraveled across the floor. ornaments unwrapped and ready to be hung on the perfect little branch. nutcrackers standing at attendance to welcoming the season. Stockings hung on the banister awaiting to be filled with little surprises. our Christmas tree was shaken, tree stand attached, and sitting in water just waiting for the trimmings to be applied. after the tree branches settled the trimmings were applied. lights began to sparkle between the branches ~ adding that glimmer of Christmas. ornaments strung with ribbon to hang on the branches. hallmark memory ornaments placed on the tree ~ building a tradition that will last for years to come. Olivia's first pair of shoes and slippers were tied onto the tree (thanks to the grandmas). sheer ribbon fell delicately between the ornaments to fill the empty little wholes.







our tree is up and sparkling. filling our house with the smell of Christmas. oh how love this time of the year.

hello lost little world.....

Its been crazy lately. A little bit of a whirlwind has taken over my life. In the midst of working, finishing the house, moving, getting ready for Thanksgiving, hosting Thanksgiving, and now getting ready for Christmas time has just flown by me. I can honestly say that I don't think I have any clue what I have been doing for the last month. My days seem to blend together by the fuzziness of the bad connection of the old tv's rabbit ears.

But in this last month a lot has happened. More than we could have ever hoped for. We moved into a gorgeous home. A home where we will bring home our little one from the hospital and start a family. A home that opens its doors to friends for weekend football games. A home that we can sit and rest in as we kick off our shoes from a long day of work and just cuddle. This home will hold so many memories, and I can't wait to start them!

Since the last post the baby and I have been moving right along. We are on the go (well I am on the go and I am training it to be on the go too!). Today I am 5 months pregnant and anticipating feeling the first of many little kicks.

Wednesday, we went to the doctor. We were able to see our little bean. I love those moments........especially since I am still in the in between and seeing this bundle of joy makes everything so much sweeter. This doctor visit was a bit more special. We had a few helpers that tagged along with us. Quisha and Eyahna came for the ultrasound. This was a much anticipated visit because now its more than just a baby. It our little girl! Yes, she is growing right along and taking after her mother! She was rather stubborn on Wednesday and didn't want to move when the lights were dimmed, and the red light of the camera was flashing. We actually had to wait for about another hour and then finally she performed her graceful dances that swept us off of our feet and into a whole new world of love and happiness. The girls were ecstatic, jumping for joy and Eyahna screaming at "I won! I won!" Now they can't wait to go shopping for her room (and I can't either)!



before we know it..........twenty weeks of pregnancy comes in a blink of an eye. We get to see her peacefully tucked away as she grows slowly but perfectly. I can't wait to hold her in my arms and simply love her all the time.

belly & body changes

No big bump yet.....but I can feel the tightness of my jeans as I attempt to button them. I have found a new love in my life (for those of you that know me- I absolutely love my jeans). I love my belly band! Thanks to Kristine.....I can squeeze my booty into my favorite express jeans and still feel cute! According to Drew I have "filled out" a little in the tummy area but I simply just feel fat. I am so excited to have the bump so people don't look at me like I am trying to squeeze into jeans that simply don't fit me anymore. A couple weekends ago I went shopping with my mom and I broke down and bought two pairs of leggings- yes, Suzanne, leggings. I'm still not sure if I can pull the whole look off but I am going to try it when I head to Pittsburgh in a little over a week.

Another minor body change- well more like a huge body change is how "top heavy" I feel (I tried to write that in some sort of a nice way). I refuse to buy bigger bras because I know that I am going to just get bigger but my word......do they have to hurt so much. I did buy a few built-in-bra camisoles that I now live in!

My daily wardrobe has changed a lot.....I don't go for the cute look anymore....its more for comfort. I even threatening my boss and warned her there is a very high chance of me showing up to work in my jammies. I'm all about the comfort right now......not how cute I look- cause simply I just don't look very cute. Hopefully next month I will look cuter!

before we know it.......fashion has slipped down the drain and comfort has found a cozy spot on my new body. Oh, how I am loving my pregnancy experiences!!!!!

awake & energized

Well, hello there blogging world. Long time no talk. It's been awhile.....a long while, but the second I get to this little spot it feels like I was just here yesterday. Writing all about life's wonderful treasures, reading other's blogs that seem just blistful!

The past month (month 2) has been a bit of a roller coaster. I think I've heard it all. From "take all the naps you can" to "this is what I did to get rid of my morning "all day" sickness". When they say that you will be tired, which is an understatement, you so are. I think that I have slept more in the past month than I have in the last 26 years of living. I just can't get enough of it. When I am not sleeping, I have no appetite.....because I am so sick.....because nothing sounds good. The only thing that does sound good or that doesn't make my stomach turn is Ramon- or any pasta that doesn't have a lot of sauce. After getting really sick for two days straight my doctor decided to take me off of prenatal vitamins and try just a folic acid pill. Everyday got a little better.....but boy oh boy did I not want to do anything for a single month. Between me and you I think my coworkers couldn't wait for me to get out of the "tired, sickness, raging hormone, unsteady stage. Now I am not saying that I have been a total lunatic but I will admit that I just didn't have the energy or desire to do anything.......let alone wake up at 6 am, get ready for work, drvie 30 minutes to work, and get bogged down with "must do's" that even if I wasn't pregnant I couldn't pull off let alone get myself to roll out of bed and shower in the morning.

This past week has been pure bliss. Not only because I have been feeling a lot better....***whispering voice***(I actually think my morning "all day" sickness has waved good bye) and my energy level is starting to pick up. My mom bought me this amazing body pillow that has helped me find sleep again and cravings are starting to pick up. But because we got to see our little one again. This time with so much more detail! Simply perfect. The little head, feet, hands, tummy. I just can't wait to finally love on this little one!



Before I knew it......I was over my all day sickness and trying to take in every single moment of my pregnant days. I love being pregnant and I can't wait to start feeling the butterflies and kicks!