Our little bean....

has taken me for a ride. this little one is in total control and i absolutely don't mind. i'm so hungry that i don't know what to eat. during my indecisiveness i get struck by starvation and i can't even think about eating. after i force myself to eat in hopes that the nausea will leave and go away forever i'm to tired to do anything that makes my life see exciting. so i throw on oversized pajama pants and a big shirt and lay on the couch. i fight to keep my eyes from closing but they always win and i end up going to bed ready to eat again. my nights are short but at the same time long.......i have to go to the bathroom all the time and when i do get up to go my hunger sits in. this is an experience that i am taking in-trying oh-so-hard-not-to complain (although everyone tells me that is what pregnant women do!).

i've been making a list of questions and concerns that i wanted to take with me to my second doctor's apt. i've have heard so many don'ts, do's and not sure abouts that i'm not sure if i know which way is up or down.

all in all yesterday was the cherry on top of the icecream. everything around me stopped. simply stood still. as i sat in the waiting room of the doctor's office time seemed to slow down. they couldn't call my name fast enough for me to get into that little room and lay down on the table. we were able to see our little bean. just so tiny and content. safe and sound. we also recieved a little surprise at this visit too-the heartbeat. i wasn't expecting to hear it.......but we did. beating so fast and perfect!



the sickness, tiredness, not wanting to do anything mood is so completely worth it. yesterday reality set in. just to see the little bean was more than i could ever want.