Thursday, April 30, 2009

crazziness

Craziness.
Head spinning craziness.
Not knowing which way is up or down craziness.
The world spinning so fast that you can't jump off craziness.

That is what these past few weeks have been like. I haven't been able to make it to the gym or have any kind of normal day. I have been feeling like there is not enough hours in the day to get everything straight. So here I am. Sitting on the couch. Finishing up Season two of Grays and blogging.

When the craziness begins I find my favorite little spots. The spots that stop time and give me the chance to breathe......think......just be.

Here are my 5 favorite little spots:

5. My blog. Its just one of the places that I can go. It doesn't close.....or care what I am wearing......or charge me money every time I Google this web address. Its the place I go to catch up with friends or just admire the pictures that are taken in an artistic way that makes me want to gobble it all up and learn how to do it. I can turn on my computer and pull up my website- at any given moment. I indulge in my friend's favorite little places- where I can read all of the happy-filled ~ drunken love ~ can't grasp reality moments that they post at random hours of the day. I love this little place!

4. The beach. Its peaceful. Quite. Calming. The waves crashing into the sandy beach and breaking....leaving a glistening layer of water along the coast. Washing away the footprints that stood before it. There is something to be said about the beach. The most amazing view of a never ending sea. Seagulls diving into the water to get food and the dolphins playing in the waves. It lets you think......it takes all of the worries off of your shoulders and lets you be.

3. The left corner of my couch. It hugs my body. I fit perfectly into the corner and the arm rest is curved just enough to allow a pillow to lay on top and not fall over or lay to flat. The cushions embrace me and help me relax. It has the most perfect view of the tv and I can roll over very slightly to pick up my bottle of ice cold water off of the floor!

2. My garden tub. Hot (almost too hot) lavender bubbly water. My terry cloth plush spa pillow and pink rose garden candles that line the tub. I dim the lights on my chandelier that hangs directly over my tub and listen to soft music play on my computer.

1. My bed. Snuggling up with my shabby chic sheets and quilt. My soft king size jersey covered pillow and Drew. The best are the days when we don't have to get out of bed and we can watch tv and not have to wake up early!

What are your 5 favorite little spots???

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Why?

Why do some people get to live a full life?

Why is it that God chooses certain people?

Why does he take that are loved so much?

It seems like he takes the individuals that have blessed souls. With hearts as big as the ocean and deeper than volcanoes. Individuals that want to share joy, and love. That one person that you called to vent or talk to or listen to or just sit there on the phone with and listen to them breathe.....because you know that he/she would do the same thing for you.

I simply want to use the word amazing but she was so much more than that. That word does not do her justice. She was just so much more than that. She was a loving person. A kind soul. An individual that didn't judge you. A honest women. A strong women. A friend. A best friend. A great dancer. A prankster. A joker. Healthy. A mother. A rock. She had impeccable taste for fashion. Down to Earth. She was beautiful in every essence. She miraculously turned into a women of love.....and it was a grand love. And she shared that love in so many different ways. Now she is in Heaven and watching over all of the people that she loved so much.


Life is a gift. A precious present that is given to us. Life is meant to be lived happily. Its not to be taken for granted or lived with regrets. Life gives us a chance to ride freely and take chances. We run down many roads, open many doors, and close windows as we travel through on this journey. Sometimes we are surrounded by friends, family, and acquaintances. Other times we travel alone.

I honestly want to say that I completely understand why God decided that it was her time.....but I don't. I DON'T understand. I know that one shouldn't question his decisions but I don't understand. It make no sense. She had so many reasons to live........if not for all of her dreams to come true but to continue to raise her 4 beautiful children to serve God in every which way. I don't understand why it was her time to leave this world........

She will be missed and I know that she is in Heaven looking down on everyone that she loved- oh so dearly. I know that I have a gorgeous angel watching over me as I continue on my journey of life!


Thursday, April 9, 2009

Hard Hat Area

Today was Day 3.

We made LOTS of progress.

No more white ordinary cabinets.

Now I have the beginning of something different, natural, and very......



FRENCH COUNTRY!!!!


Before we know it.....I will have a one of a kind kitchen- now I need to learn how to cook. Wylie we need to set up a cook date and fast!!!!!


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Protective Eye Wear Required

Today was Day 2 of our construction site! All in all it ran rather smoothly, and the only reason why I can say that is because I was NOT here all day long. I stayed out of the way today. I actually went to Tampa, with my mom, to surprise Andia. When I got home everything was ripped out.....my frigde is in the middle of my kitchen.....the stove is right in front on the frigde.......half of the drywall was missing......wholes were cut into my walls.......but I still had a kitchen sink and dishwasher!!!
Its funny how tearing out all of the cabinets in a kitchen can really open the area- my kitchen actually looked big. Well maybe big is not the word to use.......how about open or spacey. It is now 9:30pm and the hammers are still hammering away......the drill is still drilling away.....and my dad is "glueing" the new drywall. Tomorrow will come change.....and I can't wait to share it! My "french country" kitchen is almost complete!!!!!

During my"mini" trip to Tampa today I ate lunch with my cousin and her two beautiful children! I love them soooooo much! I wish they lived closer so I could see them more often! I love you Janette and Marcus!


Now that I have finished my M.A. I have dedicated my free time to looking for photography classes! I think I have found a place.....tomorrow I am going to be making some phone calls and hopefully I will be starting sooner than later. Tonight as I sat on the couch, waiting for my dad to call it quits, I decided to begin learning a little more about photoshop..........tonight I surprised myself! I worked on one of Brad & Suzanne's Baby Bump pictures...........

I love love love it- if I do say so myself!

Before we know it.........everything starts to fall into place! You learn something new everyday and those new talents help you grow into a better person!

Monday, April 6, 2009

Under Construction

I've always been the one that needs to be on the move.....never stopping, relaxing, or enjoying. Growing up I hated being in one spot for too long and that one spot was for some reason at home- I loved going to my friends house, or going to the store.....anywhere except for staying in the house. With the beginning of Spring Break off to a great start, and me planting the idea of redoing our kitchen for the last few months in Drew's head.......I finally got the a-okay to have my dad come in and let his creative juices flow!
Today was Day 1 of construction on our new kitchen. My dad taped out the lay out today so I could visually see how the kitchen would flow. We spent the rest of the day looking at each cabinet and making sure the cabinets would fit. The only dilemma that we have yet to figure out is where the microwave is going to go.
That minor factor doesn't bother me one bit because the cabinets are so beautiful. I love love love each cabinet. Each imperfection of the natural wood look. Each chocolate colored door or drawer. The elegance of simplicity. The lighted cabinets that have glass doors. The "country french" look that my kitchen will have when it is all said and done. I absolutely love them.......and can't wait to share the pictures with you!

Before we know it........we are building a house into our home in a way that speaks to our hearts!