Why?

Why do some people get to live a full life?

Why is it that God chooses certain people?

Why does he take that are loved so much?

It seems like he takes the individuals that have blessed souls. With hearts as big as the ocean and deeper than volcanoes. Individuals that want to share joy, and love. That one person that you called to vent or talk to or listen to or just sit there on the phone with and listen to them breathe.....because you know that he/she would do the same thing for you.

I simply want to use the word amazing but she was so much more than that. That word does not do her justice. She was just so much more than that. She was a loving person. A kind soul. An individual that didn't judge you. A honest women. A strong women. A friend. A best friend. A great dancer. A prankster. A joker. Healthy. A mother. A rock. She had impeccable taste for fashion. Down to Earth. She was beautiful in every essence. She miraculously turned into a women of love.....and it was a grand love. And she shared that love in so many different ways. Now she is in Heaven and watching over all of the people that she loved so much.


Life is a gift. A precious present that is given to us. Life is meant to be lived happily. Its not to be taken for granted or lived with regrets. Life gives us a chance to ride freely and take chances. We run down many roads, open many doors, and close windows as we travel through on this journey. Sometimes we are surrounded by friends, family, and acquaintances. Other times we travel alone.

I honestly want to say that I completely understand why God decided that it was her time.....but I don't. I DON'T understand. I know that one shouldn't question his decisions but I don't understand. It make no sense. She had so many reasons to live........if not for all of her dreams to come true but to continue to raise her 4 beautiful children to serve God in every which way. I don't understand why it was her time to leave this world........

She will be missed and I know that she is in Heaven looking down on everyone that she loved- oh so dearly. I know that I have a gorgeous angel watching over me as I continue on my journey of life!